it's weird

I don't want anything to be different from the way that it turned out, because this is the first time in months I think I've understood why things end up being the way that they do.
It's vague, I know, but I think there's always a quixotic time of understanding, where I finally question nothing and accept everything. Simply because that's how it is.
And, not to mention, I think something that is happening now is much different than anything that has ever happened before.