days like today

Today is a day that I felt really stupid on multiple occasions. Actually, I guess this feeling started yesterday. I think I'm a little confused on what my place is. I'm just tired of being myself and then feeling stupid for feeling comfortable enough to open up like that. Every time I do and act exactly how I want to, I regret it. If I have something I want to say that might not go over too well, I should just keep it to myself. I'm just tired of the awkwardness that follows speaking my mind, in every situation in my life.