stupid for surviving
we must have been
stupid for serving what we thought i was.

swollen behind the wall,
i watched through the hole.
i envied the horses,
and all the king's men
couldn't put me back together again.

we were meant to mess this up.
we were planning it from the start
we must have been.
we looked at ourselves and knew
we would blame the other
for why we couldn't love each other.

but i can't shake this look i saw
i've been waiting, i can wait, i will wait some more.