The doctor liked my breaking bad shirt.
You said you felt better because you were with men in business suits
when you were finally alone in the waiting room.
And the movies were bad, but they were inherently good
they made all the girls laugh.
an iv and 98.1
competing for the latest Vogue
issue brings us closer than
the real issue.
An agonizing, brutal wait.
I couldn't see the nurse's face
behind tinted windows, and
patients cant drink the water, ma'am.
A girl who didnt have a ride
was throwing up, but never cried.
My shoes looked stupid with my shorts.
It was so much better being alone.
There was no pressure to act normal
or laugh at any stupid jokes.
Instead I had a McDonald's breakfast
and 1984 responses to my questions.
I very much enjoyed the drugs,
but it wasn't your's, and it wasn't us.
I couldn't hear anything
and this has given me everything
I feel better now, and that's the truth.
There are so many good things that I have left to do.
She generally gave herself very good advice, (though she very seldom followed it).
ReplyDeleteI'm sad you were faced with this. I'm glad you have found peace with your decision.
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