I really hate all these new faggoty ass problems I've been having lately. It's along the lines of me turning into a pathetic pseudo insomnic, anorexic, OCD, schizophrenic sociopath.
Of course, I'm exaggerating, but I'm starting to feel like a character of Girl, Interrupted, especially with all of these crime shows I watch, because I find myself relating more to the serial killers than the people they've killed. I am just way too aware of the evil inside of me, and it's beginning to become much more real than it actually is.
I feel like Grissom. Where does my mind end and the minds of those who are truly "evil" begin? Because really, we are all the same. Just because I can control my evil impulses doesn't make them any less evil. It's just not there for all to see.
Now, don't misinterpret this to believe that I want to kill people. All I'm saying is that I'm starting to lose my mind. Although one can be mentally sound and still completely evil. I think a few Star Wars and Harry Potter references would come into play nicely here.
Oh, sanity. One of the many privileges we take for granted. Congratulations to those whose is still intact.
So why're you losing your mind?
ReplyDeleteim not sure.
ReplyDeletei suppose if i knew, this battle could be won.
why are you awake at four o clock in the morning?
Because I can never stop thinking about and dissecting my life. As soon as I settle on and accept one aspect of it, I find something else I can analyze. It's getting worse too, because now it's 9 a.m. and I still haven't gone to sleep.
ReplyDeletethis is exactly what im talking about. i'm pretty sure you're in the same boat as me.
ReplyDeleteYes. Which is exactly why I started talking to you. You might be like me.
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