Deserved or undeserved?
I just gotta stop being so damn easy, because in the end, it's always been my fault.
It's just frustrating because, I mean, how many times am I going to make the same stupid mistakes? And why is it impossible for me to ever feel like talking to God about it?
I know people say that God will accept you for who you are right now. But I don't think that's true. I don't think I'll feel God's presence again until I stop living a certain way. He's not going to reach out to me anymore than I'm going to reach up to him.
in a way you are right. in a way you are wrong, God is always willing to accept you. But that doesn't matter at all unless you are willing to a acknowledge him. You will not receive from Him anymore than you are willing to give to Him. And I don't know that it is so hard to feel God's presence, but I know from recent experiences when I have been living in sin that I don't want to feel God's presence, because I am ashamed, and unable to accept it... or something like that.
ReplyDeleteI hope you find God and I hope you're happy. I never found the old fellar in my heart and now I'm kind of a freak but I don't rule it out and I hope you find him so you don't end up like me, kind of lost and a little hurt haha. You'll find what you're looking for buddy
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