i used to think i was competitive

But competition ain't my thing, and I don't like to fight for the guys I want.

now you flip the script, playa pleasth.

officially over it

and anyone who makes me have to question myself. you probably suck.

I also love being blessed with the clarity to see that the people I thought were cool actually aren't that cool, and it's good to know this now.

of all the things to be thankful for

it should be bacon cheeseburgers and cute boys in cute jackets/jeans.


also, my pieces of flair are NOT depressing. at all.

Soul mates

I often disregarded the idea of soul mates because how could we ever rest assured that we are ever going to meet them? How could we ever know where they are, who they are, or if we've already met them? Lately, though, I've realized that you don't always get to meet your soul mate. You can go your whole life without meeting your one true love. They're out there, but you'll never know. They might even be a fictional character.
In my case, I HAVE found my soul mate. I realize now that this is the only person who is meant for me, created by God as a MATE for my own SOUL. It's the one person in the whole world who could ever truly love and understand me, and the one person I could ever truly love and be loyal to.
Unfortunately, he is just an alter ego, and I will never get to be with him. But I'm thankful to know that there IS someone absolutely amazing out there for me, even if he will never be mine.



Thanks Charlie, for giving me hope that I will one day find someone kind of like you, but not my soul mate.

worst blog ever

So not only does there have to be a congregation of college-aged Aryan men all hanging out in one place, but they all have to be wearing tight, white pants. DAMN YOU OHLONE BASEBALL TEAM!!!

WHY

IS MY BOYFRIEND SO HOT IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY

I'm obsessed with this case

This beautiful boy, Jean Pierre Orlewicz, is charged with first degree murder, multilation of a corpse, and some other lovely charges. According to prosecution, he killed his friend for the fun of it. The victim, Dan Sorenston, was apparently not the nicest guy in the world and had restraining orders against him, and also owed JP $400.
"TEEN THRILL KILL" is the headline used to describe this case.
I wouldn't automatically think JP was guilty just because I always like to give people the benefit of the doubt. He claims he killed Dan in self defense. But the part of the story that really changes my mind is the fact that he decapitated Dan and threw his head in the river. Uhh...oh yeah, and he cut off his fingers and burned the body, so no one would be able to identify the victim. I mean, I think it would have been a good idea to call the cops. Not to mention, his friend is also being implicated because he was in the garage while this all was happening.
Either way, it's pretty mind-blowing. They planned this murder just to see if they could get away with it. I think the generation of young adults/teens today feel this sense of invincibility, and are also horribly desensitized to violence. Now, I'm not going to blame video games or violence in the media or anything, but it certainly doesn't help sociopaths like this deal with their issues. It gives them another outlet, but then they eventually want to kill pets and rape girls, or maybe even kill someone!

BOYFRIEND UPDATE

Jesse has won me two stuffed animals, TWO that's right, so far!
=D is the emoticon closest to what I feel, but there aren't really enough sufficient options.

Dong Bang Shin Ki

so much cuter when they're NOT singing

Ron Weasley

I haven't been thinking much about Harry Potter lately, what, with all of my affairs I'm keeping in order. But I realized that it's getting pretty close to July 2009, which is when The HBP comes out. And now I'm getting all excited.
Anyways, I thought I would tide myself over with a bit of a Ron feast:












sighh
isnt that better?

"I need to go to the projects more often".

That's a direct quote from Nigel Barker, and I'm pretty sure he is the hottest guy on the history of the planet.



That's right, ladies, he also has an English accent.



This shit, however, is unacceptable:


Those people have got to GO.

If I were taller, I would try out for America's Next Top Model only in hopes of getting somewhat close to him. I have no desire to be a model, but I have every interest in modeling for Nigel Barker. He can take my picture any day.

Hulk Hogan

is not as unappreciated as I once believed.

the only men i love.

Hanson, always and forever.


Matt Damon with a Boston accent circa Good Will Hunting.


Liam Neeson.


Kevin Drew, the musician who knows me better than anyone without ever knowing I exist.


My newest love, Michael C. Hall, but only as a secret serial killer.


Gary Oldman in every shape and form he has ever been in.


Seth Rogan, the epitome of my dream guy.