And all the "friends" that I do have find me entirely expendable.
I hate this town SO MUCH, but the only person I can take it out on is myself. I need to stop caring about other people because all it has done is make me weak and stupid. Whenever I think I might be worth the effort, I am reminded harshly that next to nobody feels the same.
However, I am hoping soon that I will get a life. If I have to spend another 24 hours sitting around at home, I really think I'm going to blowtorch my fat ugly Jewish face off.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
Monday, March 23, 2009
9 yo Power Trip
In fourth grade, my teacher made us keep journals that she would collect and read once a week. This is an entry from said journal.
Math is a lot easier for me. I'm glad. Last night I wasn't crying. I like it! I think I'm weird. What's your favorite kind of gummy bears? I have a boyfriend. His name begins with an A...try guessing. Pleeeaaasseee WHO DID YOU VOTE FOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jane Harmon, I hope. But probably Gray Davis. Who would name their son Gray? Ew, it's so, so morbid. Not morbid, but spooky, or wolf like. I am now officially nine and a half. It feels great to be a half older than I really am. I should send out invitations! I'm older than most fellow nine year olds. All nine and a half year olds (and Stephanie) come join me, and we can rule over fourth grade TOGETHER!!!!! It's that day. At three o clock this morning I was nine and a half. And a few months later, my glory will come! At exactly three o clock ..on August 10th, I will take over my sister, because I will be ten, and since I was lucky enough to be born first, I will always take over her!
Math is a lot easier for me. I'm glad. Last night I wasn't crying. I like it! I think I'm weird. What's your favorite kind of gummy bears? I have a boyfriend. His name begins with an A...try guessing. Pleeeaaasseee WHO DID YOU VOTE FOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jane Harmon, I hope. But probably Gray Davis. Who would name their son Gray? Ew, it's so, so morbid. Not morbid, but spooky, or wolf like. I am now officially nine and a half. It feels great to be a half older than I really am. I should send out invitations! I'm older than most fellow nine year olds. All nine and a half year olds (and Stephanie) come join me, and we can rule over fourth grade TOGETHER!!!!! It's that day. At three o clock this morning I was nine and a half. And a few months later, my glory will come! At exactly three o clock ..on August 10th, I will take over my sister, because I will be ten, and since I was lucky enough to be born first, I will always take over her!
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Mustache of the Week
I'm starting a new a segment called Mustache of the Week. It's a really good idea.
This week I'm featuring Salvador Dali's mustache. Get down on this shit:
And if you don't know who Salvador Dali is, you need to do some serious research, or visit the Dali Museum in Tampa, Florida aka, PLEASE TAKE ME!!
This week I'm featuring Salvador Dali's mustache. Get down on this shit:
And if you don't know who Salvador Dali is, you need to do some serious research, or visit the Dali Museum in Tampa, Florida aka, PLEASE TAKE ME!!
I must have fallen asleep because I woke up somewhere different
When I opened my eyes I saw bright white walls shining with hand painted oil from my palms and the soles of a man who feels harder than the rain, but softer than the pain that sinks into my hips when his rough fingertips
search my whole body to discover the bone.
He also feels like too much sun and makes my pupils dilate and red spread underneath my skin until my limbs are fresh with heat, and my heart stops keeping beat as it slows, sinks, and swells, to the dismay of my cells
who come in the millions, and yet feel quite alone.
My head hangs on my spine like a broken streetlight
while my skirt is flying upward like your wanton kite
I want to be the one girl that you want to treat right
and not just in case you might get cold at night.
There are days when the sky is the film in my eyes, and it's hard to believe that the world isn't changing when my heart is expanding every day. But sometimes these feelings, they only can taunt me, when I can't imagine the reasons you want me, and the way that I feel is too good to be real
so this must be a dream that we've made.
And for those two weeks, I was tobacco free. Now your lungs are expanding, and your muscles stretch beneath me, and your soul drips like water onto a fever as my head becomes bright and increasingly warm, but before the words I choke on finally form, you have figured it out, and now love kills all doubt.
You know what I am, and you still aren't afraid.
search my whole body to discover the bone.
He also feels like too much sun and makes my pupils dilate and red spread underneath my skin until my limbs are fresh with heat, and my heart stops keeping beat as it slows, sinks, and swells, to the dismay of my cells
who come in the millions, and yet feel quite alone.
My head hangs on my spine like a broken streetlight
while my skirt is flying upward like your wanton kite
I want to be the one girl that you want to treat right
and not just in case you might get cold at night.
There are days when the sky is the film in my eyes, and it's hard to believe that the world isn't changing when my heart is expanding every day. But sometimes these feelings, they only can taunt me, when I can't imagine the reasons you want me, and the way that I feel is too good to be real
so this must be a dream that we've made.
And for those two weeks, I was tobacco free. Now your lungs are expanding, and your muscles stretch beneath me, and your soul drips like water onto a fever as my head becomes bright and increasingly warm, but before the words I choke on finally form, you have figured it out, and now love kills all doubt.
You know what I am, and you still aren't afraid.
BOYFRIEND UPDATE
Jesse has won me two stuffed animals, TWO that's right, so far!
=D is the emoticon closest to what I feel, but there aren't really enough sufficient options.
=D is the emoticon closest to what I feel, but there aren't really enough sufficient options.
Friday, March 20, 2009
HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS
So I was just looking into some awesome stuff, and it seems that there are going to be TWO Deathly Hallows movies, meaning they are splitting it up. Which is awesome because that means I have about three more years to look forward to Harry Potter related things before the time comes that I'm just gonna have to let it go.
Anyways, that's not all.
THERE'S PICTURES! Mostly of Harry walking in a forest, but this still excites me.
As you can see, Harry's looking a little bit different. He kind of reminds me of my friend John Wu when he was bigger and his hair was different.
Anyways, good news. And, as you can see, the countdown for the Half Blood Prince is dwindling everyday.
Anyways, that's not all.
THERE'S PICTURES! Mostly of Harry walking in a forest, but this still excites me.
As you can see, Harry's looking a little bit different. He kind of reminds me of my friend John Wu when he was bigger and his hair was different.
Anyways, good news. And, as you can see, the countdown for the Half Blood Prince is dwindling everyday.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
part of me knew what i was getting myself into as soon as i stepped foot onto red persian carpet and the way my hands stuck to the railings and linoleum white walls. the door was double locked, and it also had a bolt no getting out and no coming in third floor sliding glass door didn't seem worth the risk. i watched the bed spread out and this television show used to play when i would get ready for school. and i can't connect the events although i look over both, unfeeling, and i see what i'm doing with no complaints, and seeing that this life is the same, but how could these two lives be the same? i saw the carpet was like sand and my knees burned against them. i ran my tongue along the glass that i shortly filled with brandy and the bathroom held me the bathroom watched me i left myself when i left the bathroom because i needed a moment alone, because the way my face looked was going to make it difficult.
was i supposed to blame someone else so i could deal with this, so i could understand why i was doing this? because two hours went by and i saw how something like this could ruin someone. i waited for a long time to get what i thought i deserved. well im not going to run from the truth, i just won't acknowledge its existence. it's not that i'm afraid it's just a waste of time. whats the point when i'm just going to end up back where i started from? nothing ever works out the way you pay for it to, but i deserved the worst that i got.
was i supposed to blame someone else so i could deal with this, so i could understand why i was doing this? because two hours went by and i saw how something like this could ruin someone. i waited for a long time to get what i thought i deserved. well im not going to run from the truth, i just won't acknowledge its existence. it's not that i'm afraid it's just a waste of time. whats the point when i'm just going to end up back where i started from? nothing ever works out the way you pay for it to, but i deserved the worst that i got.
UPDATE
I am
...feeling tired every afternoon when I wake up.
...continuing to have dreams about California.
...wondering why people can't just say what they mean.
...wishing everyone was a little more patient.
...watching Even Stevens.
...walking on eggshells.
...feeling tired every afternoon when I wake up.
...continuing to have dreams about California.
...wondering why people can't just say what they mean.
...wishing everyone was a little more patient.
...watching Even Stevens.
...walking on eggshells.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
I just bought
THIS!
Limited edition autographed version.
Total waste of money, but I'm a shameless Broken Social Scene loserfreak, and I would buy anything they autographed for fifty dollars. Even an orange peel, or my forehead.
And it doesn't even come out until May 16th, and I'm all excited about it and shit. It has, like, one hundred and fifty personal photos!!!!!!!!11111
Limited edition autographed version.
Total waste of money, but I'm a shameless Broken Social Scene loserfreak, and I would buy anything they autographed for fifty dollars. Even an orange peel, or my forehead.
And it doesn't even come out until May 16th, and I'm all excited about it and shit. It has, like, one hundred and fifty personal photos!!!!!!!!11111
Monday, March 16, 2009
Saturday, March 14, 2009
BTW it is another one of those days
where I really hate my life and wish I'd never been born!!!!!!!1
AHHHH the years go fast and the days go so slow
AHHHH the years go fast and the days go so slow
PEOPLE PEOPLE PEOPLE
RAISE YOUR HAND IF YOU HAVE A SEXY BOYFRIEND
In other news, I could really go for some steak and shake, so that's where I'll be. You know, in all of my years, I had never even heard of one, let alone ate there. So there are small miracles in Florida that I'm discovering every day.
Like how it's almost ninety degrees out right now although it will probably be like, forty tonight.
In other news, I could really go for some steak and shake, so that's where I'll be. You know, in all of my years, I had never even heard of one, let alone ate there. So there are small miracles in Florida that I'm discovering every day.
Like how it's almost ninety degrees out right now although it will probably be like, forty tonight.
Friday, March 13, 2009
The Hazards of Love
I don't know if anyone has heard the new album by The Decemberists called The Hazards of Love but it's really good.
HERE'S A SONG:
HERE'S A SONG:
HAPPY DOUBLE FRIDAY THE 13TH
HEY GUYS
A couple of things
1. As you probably know, it's Friday the 13th again, which I'm going to get my hopes up about and think that it's an apocalyptic sign. Life as we know it is slowly coming to a close.
2. As you can see, I have a new question of the day up, in relation to the Jeff Corwin entry.
3. In other news:
courtesy of dlisted
A couple of things
1. As you probably know, it's Friday the 13th again, which I'm going to get my hopes up about and think that it's an apocalyptic sign. Life as we know it is slowly coming to a close.
2. As you can see, I have a new question of the day up, in relation to the Jeff Corwin entry.
3. In other news:
courtesy of dlisted
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Quote of the Day
"I can't believe they're still playing commercials after that [really long] commercial!"
Serious insight from Sarah.
Jeff Corwin is either
a) an asshole,
b) smoking pcp, payote, or weed at all times,
c) schizophrenic, or
d) all of the above.
Jeff Corwin definitely thinks he's better than all of the locals he deals with in the third world countries, and he's obviously disgusted by them. Jeff Corwin also talks a lot of smack for a little beetch. Jeff Corwin is petrified of most of the animals he sees. Jeff Corwin runs away a lot and makes the local minorities deal with the reptiles. So that makes me think it's option A.
But then Jeff Corwin is always sweaty and his eyes are bulging out of his head. Jeff Corwin makes strange noises and talks in crazy voices. Jeff Corwin is often paranoid. Jeff Corwin personifies most of the animals or plants and talks to lots of inanimate objects, and just your general displays of trippin. That could be either B or C. But then you listen to the music, and it's the craziest music on the planet, so it makes me think it's B. While it's playing, Jeff Corwin's freaking out at this lizard, "LOOK at him!!!! He's boogadee boogiting BY!!!!" and acting like Charles Manson.
So definitely all of the above.
Thank GOODNESS Steve Irwin is on next!!!!
He owns Jeff Corwin in every way. In this episode, he finds an alligator over her eggs or something so she's in a trance! When Steve has to leave, he says says, "Ooohh, I love you, sweetheart..." and gives her a big kiss!
YES! YES! YES!
Serious insight from Sarah.
Jeff Corwin is either
a) an asshole,
b) smoking pcp, payote, or weed at all times,
c) schizophrenic, or
d) all of the above.
Jeff Corwin definitely thinks he's better than all of the locals he deals with in the third world countries, and he's obviously disgusted by them. Jeff Corwin also talks a lot of smack for a little beetch. Jeff Corwin is petrified of most of the animals he sees. Jeff Corwin runs away a lot and makes the local minorities deal with the reptiles. So that makes me think it's option A.
But then Jeff Corwin is always sweaty and his eyes are bulging out of his head. Jeff Corwin makes strange noises and talks in crazy voices. Jeff Corwin is often paranoid. Jeff Corwin personifies most of the animals or plants and talks to lots of inanimate objects, and just your general displays of trippin. That could be either B or C. But then you listen to the music, and it's the craziest music on the planet, so it makes me think it's B. While it's playing, Jeff Corwin's freaking out at this lizard, "LOOK at him!!!! He's boogadee boogiting BY!!!!" and acting like Charles Manson.
So definitely all of the above.
Thank GOODNESS Steve Irwin is on next!!!!
He owns Jeff Corwin in every way. In this episode, he finds an alligator over her eggs or something so she's in a trance! When Steve has to leave, he says says, "Ooohh, I love you, sweetheart..." and gives her a big kiss!
YES! YES! YES!
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Hernando County Arrests !!!!! March 9th !!!!!
I haven't done this lately so I'm excited!
Elizabeth C. Branson! Up to your old tricks, I see...grand theft and another scheme to obtain property!
lol
Now, he's in there for domestic battery. I know he looks scrawny, but he also looks crazy. I wouldn't want to piss him off EVER.
And this woman, already in jail, was caught trafficking drugs, and, obviously, being in possession of contraband. I hope she isn't somebody's mother!
Oh, and be on the look-out. This guy was arrested for a sex offender violation around Spring Hill Drive:
Wow. Maybe try NOT to look like a perv.
Elizabeth C. Branson! Up to your old tricks, I see...grand theft and another scheme to obtain property!
lol
Now, he's in there for domestic battery. I know he looks scrawny, but he also looks crazy. I wouldn't want to piss him off EVER.
And this woman, already in jail, was caught trafficking drugs, and, obviously, being in possession of contraband. I hope she isn't somebody's mother!
Oh, and be on the look-out. This guy was arrested for a sex offender violation around Spring Hill Drive:
Wow. Maybe try NOT to look like a perv.
Monday, March 9, 2009
Half Blood Prince Countdown
You'll be happy to know, or maybe you won't care, that I've added a Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince countdown to my blog. As you can see, we have 129 days left.
I was watching an awesome behind the scenes preview today. I was so excited, my eyes were watering. I felt like Nutty Madam
I was watching an awesome behind the scenes preview today. I was so excited, my eyes were watering. I felt like Nutty Madam
indestructable
In other news, why am I drinking caffeinated soda at three o clock in the morning??
Perhaps Ken can explain a few things about how machines don't need to sleep.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Saturday, March 7, 2009
i don't know
what the hell is going on things are looking crazy and i can't tell what anyone is thinking anymore.
cue beethoven's fifth symphony.
cue beethoven's fifth symphony.
My Town
Well, thanks to Google Earth, I can give those who don't know street view tour of my town. Let's not get too excited for this beautiful tour of Anna's spots and shit.
Alright first off, that's my old house. And, yes, that would have possibly been my Corolla except we've sold it.
This is my street:
This is my store:
These are my hills;
This was my park:
This was my high school:
lol cool
Alright first off, that's my old house. And, yes, that would have possibly been my Corolla except we've sold it.
This is my street:
This is my store:
These are my hills;
This was my park:
This was my high school:
lol cool
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