stupid for surviving
we must have been
stupid for serving what we thought i was.

swollen behind the wall,
i watched through the hole.
i envied the horses,
and all the king's men
couldn't put me back together again.

we were meant to mess this up.
we were planning it from the start
we must have been.
we looked at ourselves and knew
we would blame the other
for why we couldn't love each other.

but i can't shake this look i saw
i've been waiting, i can wait, i will wait some more.

trying so hard

to keep hating Max Bemis but it's so hard when you really really like him.

STOP BEING IN LOVE, STUPID!!!

alone in this one

i won't give up, but i won't try harder
when i can be the land and still be the water.
i can crash your boat, i can stop your waves
and i can taste your salt when it's been gone for days.

and i left this place without knowing shame
but i know it now
yeah, i know it now

It's funny that the things that really don't matter much are the things I care about, and the things that really do matter aren't.

Thank you, Game of Thrones

For another night of suicide prevention.

Quote of the Night

"It's funny that old people put make-up on."

To do

1) Finish laundry 2) Clean room 3) Finish paper 4) Get drunk 5) Forget about to-do list.